when what's real really isn't

I asked for assurance, wholeheartedly trusted, sadly all I got was disappointment. it took a long time before i figured it out that i was lied to. Of course, when we are in love we dont question things, we just accept. and i do plead guilty to that. but now that i'm in a different state of mind (still sane i hope), i finally put the pices of the puzzle together and saw that the puzzle didnt look at all like the picture that i had in mind. the picture that was painted for me by someone i had trusted with all my heart. The picture i just saw was the ugliest ive ever seen, yet i feelings i had at that moment was uglier, as i realized that i was stupid enough to believe everything.

Yes, it hurts. not becasue i havent moved on, but it is that reason itself that i feel like s*!^. I recovered based on what i knew, and accepted things for what they were. I've learned to forgive; sadly, i never forget. It really is such a small world for our lies to survive. eventually, the truth will come out and kick you in the forehead. In my case, it took half a year. Not bad. I actually held this person in higher regard for telling me the "truth". But after uncovering all these things, i realized that that was the coldest lie ever said to me. it was then that i had to realize the hard way that the nicest person is the most heartless liar.